To those I know and those I have interacted with here on the forum. First of all, I'm sorry for my lack of answers and for disappearing from the forum.
Long story short I broke and lost all control of my pokergame, spiraled into dept, lost my company, all of my savings, many friends but manage to keep my apartment and my wife for now. Still fighting off some debts and loan sharks but things are going upwards for the first time in a long time. For those who I own money to, send me what I owe you and your paypal address to my email, gunnarthor2(at)gmail...... I can’t tell when I will pay you back but I can tell you that I will someday make right for everything I did wrong. I’m truly sorry for those I hurt and let down, I won't ask for trust or forgiveness I will only ask for time.
Long story.
I’m pokerfree for 3 months now. It has not been easy but Im proud of it. Last two years have been really hard and something inside my broke. All pokerlimits and rules I set myself vanished and I played almost everything away. I can’t tell you when it started to be a problem, but my wife was sick fighting some illness that nobody can identify took it toll, both personally and pokerwise. What used to be fund disposable income started to be crucial income to stay afloat, losing started to hurt, and losing started to be the regular outcome. Last february there was a pokertrip organized to Dublin with my friend Jon Bondi ( Jon Farmer ) that some of you know from my meetup in Iceland. Because of my constant bad playing and losing I had to cancel last minute and off to Dublin went a group of Icelanders including one of my best friends Jon. This was a breaking point for me, not because I missed some poker, because Jon never returned. In this trip Jon disappeared without a trace, walked out to get a smoke and bam. No body has been found, and he did not have a photo ID or passport so he could not leave the island. I went to Dublin to look for him with a search party but nothing, no clues or anything. Every option seems far fetched and Im not going into details. Two most likely options are sucicide or robbery gone bad, we will never know.
After this I fell into a dark hole, both at the table and at life. I soon after vanished from the forum and spent all my time playing poker with borrowed money and other stupid things. This story is not to get some empathy or forgiveness for what I did and the commitments I broke.
1. September I hit rock bottom and got help, I have been going into meetings and slowly getting control of my life. Sadly I have to cut off all poker related hobbies like this forum and collecting poker chips. This part of my life is simply over. Thus said I still have many great friends here and of course if any forum members want to visit Iceland and need advice or help feel free to contact me. I will soon delete my account here after this post and for my friends, debt collectors or Iceland advice seekers feel free to email me at gunnarthor2(at)gmail......
Thanks for the read, thanks for all the memories and thanks for the beautiful chips you maniacs have brought into this world.
Long story short I broke and lost all control of my pokergame, spiraled into dept, lost my company, all of my savings, many friends but manage to keep my apartment and my wife for now. Still fighting off some debts and loan sharks but things are going upwards for the first time in a long time. For those who I own money to, send me what I owe you and your paypal address to my email, gunnarthor2(at)gmail...... I can’t tell when I will pay you back but I can tell you that I will someday make right for everything I did wrong. I’m truly sorry for those I hurt and let down, I won't ask for trust or forgiveness I will only ask for time.
Long story.
I’m pokerfree for 3 months now. It has not been easy but Im proud of it. Last two years have been really hard and something inside my broke. All pokerlimits and rules I set myself vanished and I played almost everything away. I can’t tell you when it started to be a problem, but my wife was sick fighting some illness that nobody can identify took it toll, both personally and pokerwise. What used to be fund disposable income started to be crucial income to stay afloat, losing started to hurt, and losing started to be the regular outcome. Last february there was a pokertrip organized to Dublin with my friend Jon Bondi ( Jon Farmer ) that some of you know from my meetup in Iceland. Because of my constant bad playing and losing I had to cancel last minute and off to Dublin went a group of Icelanders including one of my best friends Jon. This was a breaking point for me, not because I missed some poker, because Jon never returned. In this trip Jon disappeared without a trace, walked out to get a smoke and bam. No body has been found, and he did not have a photo ID or passport so he could not leave the island. I went to Dublin to look for him with a search party but nothing, no clues or anything. Every option seems far fetched and Im not going into details. Two most likely options are sucicide or robbery gone bad, we will never know.
After this I fell into a dark hole, both at the table and at life. I soon after vanished from the forum and spent all my time playing poker with borrowed money and other stupid things. This story is not to get some empathy or forgiveness for what I did and the commitments I broke.
1. September I hit rock bottom and got help, I have been going into meetings and slowly getting control of my life. Sadly I have to cut off all poker related hobbies like this forum and collecting poker chips. This part of my life is simply over. Thus said I still have many great friends here and of course if any forum members want to visit Iceland and need advice or help feel free to contact me. I will soon delete my account here after this post and for my friends, debt collectors or Iceland advice seekers feel free to email me at gunnarthor2(at)gmail......
Thanks for the read, thanks for all the memories and thanks for the beautiful chips you maniacs have brought into this world.